Just for you...

If there was only one man I love in my life, it got to be him. I was with him for 4 years. I thought I know him inside out. I thought that I could just hold his hand till old and have sex with him and only him till his dick loses his functionality. I thought he thought the same way too. Though there are times when I look at him, I wish that he could be more handsome and less irritating. I wish that he can just stopped loving his car so much and put the attention on me instead. I wish he can be more romantic and not be shy to show PDA. But alas, that’s him! And I know that deep in my heart, I am going to spend my life with him. I picture myself screaming at him coz he throws the packet of leftovers potato chips on the floor. Picture us watching tele on the sofa while having sex at the same time. Picture living happily together…. It’s been 2 years. Though I still believe true love does exist, I sometimes wonder if I could still love anyone like I loved him. I wonder if I could open up to anyone like I did to him. So much wonderings of him with me...

'After what you've done to hurt me, I still think of you, and I hope you do think of me once in a while too.'

Signing off
Adri

Jing is back again..

Don't be confused by the title... Kel (a guy i'm currently dating) reminds me of Jing… He calls me ‘Princess’. He teases me the way Jing used to do. He likes to take me walking aimlessly around without any plan (Jing used to do that too!). But still… he can’t replace the position of Jing in my heart. It’s really a shame that Jing and me cannot be together. However, I knew that we would always have a special place in each other’s heart. I may not be the woman of his life… But I do hope that he will still think of me sometimes… And one more thing… Kel let me scribble lovey dovey words in his diary like Jing used to. I record down everything from out first date to what movie we watch. I like him…. But somehow, something seems to be lacking.

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Jing and I exchanged a few smses these few days. We tell each other abt our recent life and how things have been going. We are meeting for dinner on Thursday. I never thought that we still could be friends after so much had happened. I hope everything turns out fine.

Signing off,
Adri

Gone like the wind.

It comes to me like a lightning and goes away like the wind before I even knew it. These few words about sums up my feelings for the jerk. Yes, he is not ‘my man’ now. He is the jerk now. So after all, I don’t think I love him that much. Its just in the moment of impulse and in that moment when I feel that I needed someone like him and he appeared. Someone who reads my mind and someone who whispers sweet nothings to me. And also someone who always showers me with kisses and touches to let me knows that he cares. When he went overseas during the first week of Chinese New Year, he did not contact me at all. Not even a phone call. I did even realize that I dun think of him that much. Technically speaking, we did not even have a start, not to mention breaking off. Now that he is back from his trip, he still calls me and sms me. I continue to talk to him but this leads to him thinking that he still can continuing bedding me. -_-. Gosh, is he thinking with his penis or am I giving out wrong signal??? Opps… someone just called… goatta go! Update more later! Bye guys.

Signing off
Adri