Wow-lah-Voo

I want someone who can sweep me off my feet. I want someone who send butterflies in my stomach. I want someone whom I can love like I nv love before. Kel just does not fit into all these. Yet, I want to have him by my side till I found that someone else. Yes, I am selfish. He is really a nice chap. But he just doesn't give me tha wow-lah-voo feeling when I see him. I am really guilty sometimes, feeling like such a bitch. But when I think back of those guys that hurt me, I thought that it would be better that someone else get hurt rather than myself. Life's nv fair anyway. I pray hard that karma dun befall on me.

Adri

Have ever u wondered what it feels like to lay down on the sands at the beach....gazing at the night sky...fingering thru the stars..and jus feel the seabreeze flowing by....brushing softly across your skin...and soothing sounds from the waves...coming back and forth....jus relaxes you fully... and wouldn't it be even better... if you were cuddled tightly....making u feel u are the most desirable woman ever...and planting soft kisses on your earlobe...and your cheek...
and jus gaze at u lovingly with deep piercing eyes....and jus gaze at u lovingly with deep piercing eyes....and jus gaze at u lovingly with deep piercing eyes....that seems to tell a million words...

Why can't I picture that with kel?

Signing off,
Adri

My lover Boy!

The starting of the relationship is always full of uncertainties and excitement. The kisses will always send a tingling feeling down your mind and up to your brain. You will always want to prolong those sweet kisses. Kel is a great kisser. He’s passionate and sometimes rough. He’s adventurous and likes to try out new stuffs. Just that day, he pinned me against the wall when kissing me. He raised both of my hands up and held them up with one hand while the other hands roamed my thighs. I felt so powerless and weak. He continued kissing me and slowly his kisses went slowly down my neck licking and sucking it at all the right places till I began letting out soft moans. We have already been dating for close to 2 months, but sex is still not in the picture yet… I think that’s the sweet part of the relationship. The sweetest part of the relationship to me is the time just before sex. The time when both of you are still in the process of discovering the likes and dislikes of each other. The time when both of us are still exploring the other’s party body. Kel is my lover boy. He wants me to commit. He says he loves me. He says he loves to kiss me. He says I am a great kisser. And I know he loves me more than I love him now… However so, I am scare. I am afraid of falling in love. I am afraid of getting hurt again. I don’t want to go through the vicious cycle again. Will he still love me as much after he got into my skirt? Will he still find me hot and pretty after he got me? I am confused and scared….

Adri

Love you, Love you not?

Kel is really a nice guy. I can really feel his sincerity towards me. He is different from those horny bastards that I known. I have been seeing him for 1 month plus now. At first, I liked him. And I thought, I would like him more and more. But now… It was proven otherwise. I guess I just treated him as a companion in my lonely times. I told him that I liked him, and, I guessed that he thought that I liked him as much as he liked me or if not, almost the same… He really is nice to me, seriously. He is the only guy who lets me look at his hp without me asking to… He asks me to help him reply his smses when his hands are busy. He lets me have his msn and friendster passwords. He is always contactable. Basically, he is always there for me. But why? But can’t he send butterflies down my stomach? Why can’t he makes me feel that ‘Yes! You are the one!’ Just now, he said something to me, which makes me feel so shocked… “I think I’m falling for you” I didn’t see it coming at all… Maybe I did… But not so soon… I think I carried this game too far but yet, I don’t know how to stop. Or maybe, I just don’t want it to stop….

Signing off,
Adri